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I'm sad ...
today I realized that I and my best friend (the one since kindergarten) we are taking different paths ... I better stop I'm always at the same point ... and she took a different route ... and asked me to try to follow but I'm confused, I do not know if it would do for me ...

I'm really confused because I have the impression that nothing ever changes in my life, and I fear that infuses this happen.

I never found a place that really did for me ... and I'm afraid you will not find anything, I have the annoying ability to be surrounded by friends and feel lonely and annoyed when they speak to me .. simply because often I do not care what they say.

bitch And I feel when this happens because they really love me, and I want them, with all my heart, but I just also need more.
But I'm afraid to take new roads, it is easier to think of leaving this city without looking back, go away piuttosto che cercare ancora un motivo per restare.

é una fuga, lo so ma non so se è poi così sbagliato cercare altrove ciò che non si riesce a trovare dove ci si trova...

Non mi sento sempre così...a volte mi accontento dei pomeriggi da soccorso amico con stupide canzoni a tutto volume a sparare cazzate, o dei sabati sera in giro per i locali o cose così.

Ma a volte non ci riesco.

E mi sento così oppressa e annoiata che me ne andrei e basta.
Qui non ho voglia mettermi in gioco ancora o di restare delusa e così resto ferma...
E forse mi va anche bene così per ora...non lo so.

E'una serie di pensieri senza capo ne coda...questo lo so, ma I have to somehow put some order in my head.

Maybe it's just the time ... and I hope that one day I will see very clearly what I want, how, and why ...
maybe one day I will stop to spend their afternoons to fuck with the music blaring, the phone staring at the ceiling and I can make a real change in my life and do something really useful.

Something that makes me really happy.

In practice alive waiting for the day when I'll be really happy and I am afraid that when I could be really sad because I know I'm lucky to have people around me who love me and make me know and I'm afraid of losing everything this and then I feel guilty in wanting more ... but in the midst of all this I do not do anything important and serious ... I tried! but maybe now I just have to wait. This outburst

really personal here that the term is better ...
And I've made a rod while it may seem,:) even if there is consistency in what I write ... even if I contradict myself or else I'm just a po'confusa and sad.

But then goes ...

Good night ... Before you burn